Bitter

I changed but i guess you didnt. I learned to put on that fake smile that you all wanted to act happy and bubbly when i feel like shit. But you will always see me as nothing. Not good enought to be in your girly click then and not now. I feel walked on and used. So much for friendship. It is some what sad when you start to belive its all a lie. That friends are never friends for very long. That all people do is use other people. What an ugly look out on life. Bah. I am bitter. Guess no matter how much fashion makeup and random some what chicky things i learn i will never be good enough for the whole girly click. Guys are so much easier to deal with. They are most of the time blunt and to the point. Oh well guess i will be one of those "one of guys" girl lol allready there at least I dont where guys clothing now (shh just my studio clothing). To hell with women I mite be one but I sure as hell will never understand them.