forget

3 years gone and still I cant forget. A false hope that maybe we will be friends but it seems never again. I moved I have come back. I cant hide all the time so I pray we dont run into each other. I am sure you look at me as worthless. I failed at what i should be doing. I said i wouldnt be back here but look at me siting here complaining. I promised myself not to talk to you. But i had to for some reason. I can wish you the best but even if i still care it means nothing to you. I wish i could hate you but I cant. I need to move so this doesnt habor any more. I guess you will never see me for who i am. I took from you something important and you did the same to me do you dislike me for or regret it. I cant regret it or hate it. I wish i could forget everthing and be a blank slate. I still cant move past this so i need to move away but there is no where to go where i will cease to think about it. Your done soon what will you do. say here or move will you find a job will you look I dont know. I am just a distant nightmare to you. I wish i could just fade away and die. This is just a rant of thought and pain that is going no where. I wish it would all just go away.