I leave today

I am leaving today or late this evening
I am scared and excited
I was a nervous wreck earlier and I got sick aka lost my dinner due to stress
I broke down a bit on MD didn't mean to I am going to miss him a lot
He gave me a card that i am not aloud to open till the UK its driving me nuts.
Sigh I am worried that he wont try and go out much i want him to meet people
hes such a sweetheart and some times i think his shyness or quietness hinder people from seeing that. I know I will be back in dec but I worry a lot. To add I want to make sure I get his birthday gift to him as well. People better remember. sigh so i am leaving in 19 or so hours. The years has come and gone it feels like it went to fast. I feel so lost.
I know I can adapt but now I have more to miss. I don't really have any one to talk about this with. I miss jeff and when i left FL i got a bit upset but i had a week to adapt to that. A week to see him move in and to curl up next too before i when home so i know he is ok. But know its just get up and leave. I go from see and hanging out with MD to being 5 hours or in a different time zone and no where near him. I hope its not to much shock on both sides. I feel so lonely even tho i have these people to talk to. I just have to hope everything goes well. so I guess this is see ya till I am in Coventry and able to use the internet. Wish me luck i need it. granted no one reads this.... end of idle ramble