miss you

The distance is further
and its getting further
across an ocean
in a different country soon
I miss you
I hold you closer to my heart and fear I will lose you
to hear your voice its makes it bearable
but I try to calm the worry
the fears
but its there can this really work so far away
I cant be there to hug and you cant be here
will it work out
can a fairytale ending happen or is it the illusions I hide behind to make it work
I know a piece of me is with you I cant have it back
I don't want it back
Its your forever
your so much to me I worry over losing you to distance to your work
I don't want to bother you
I know you have lots to do
I worry about be away for so long
I miss you
your relaxed manner to calm my storm
I know i can hear you maybe see you face soon
but I will miss being held being close
I know I am not as clingy as you want
but I feel like I will be after being away so long
I miss you and I am not that far
will i feel it even more after I move
I am scared I wish you were going with me
but you have your work to do as well
I love you just the same
the distance hurts but I still feel connected to you
Crazy I know
maybe the piece of me that is gone is attached to you some how
I wish you goodnight and curl up with your purple shirt that I love
I still miss you but I will be strong if only to talk to you tomorrow
and wait for the holidays to see you
"Sweet dream love" I call out to the darkness know I will hear nothing in return
"I love you"
wishing for plenty dream of you to scary off the lonelyness

just a ramble of thought moving soon
2 week still not use to being so far away from my bf don't say much about him here i only bitch when in a bad modd. not really in a bad mood just lonely. I miss him a lot he moved for his masters and i am moving soon as well