bah hoildays

the hoildays are here. Bah and i wish they were over. was find before i came back home to find my mom had write in black ink arcoss a seal transcript that need to be mailed soon. Now have to wait till the hoilday is over to get another one and waste some more dame time. how do you write on a freaking transcript its got a dame seal on it. Think she did it to make be feel crapy again. oh she doesnt want me to get in so she can laugh at me more. I dislike holiday and I hate people. no matter what i try to do someone has to rain on my ideas and everthing they can think of. So much for getting out of here think i just dug my grave here. Just wish it would end sooner.

forget

3 years gone and still I cant forget. A false hope that maybe we will be friends but it seems never again. I moved I have come back. I cant hide all the time so I pray we dont run into each other. I am sure you look at me as worthless. I failed at what i should be doing. I said i wouldnt be back here but look at me siting here complaining. I promised myself not to talk to you. But i had to for some reason. I can wish you the best but even if i still care it means nothing to you. I wish i could hate you but I cant. I need to move so this doesnt habor any more. I guess you will never see me for who i am. I took from you something important and you did the same to me do you dislike me for or regret it. I cant regret it or hate it. I wish i could forget everthing and be a blank slate. I still cant move past this so i need to move away but there is no where to go where i will cease to think about it. Your done soon what will you do. say here or move will you find a job will you look I dont know. I am just a distant nightmare to you. I wish i could just fade away and die. This is just a rant of thought and pain that is going no where. I wish it would all just go away.