Monday, March 27, 2006

Rejected

FIT rejected me. A nice thin rejection letter. I will figure out how to get in to spit them or re-apply when I have some form of drawing background for them to drool over and speak another language. So now my employment search has meaning. Please hire me. lol to bad that 5 year experise thing is a bitch. Life suchs and if feel like no matter how much you work and want to do something everone finds a way to shit on if for you. so you get older and your dream still are far away. Life is a pain in the ass but i am going to use a strong pain killer.
MidnightOwl

Monday, March 06, 2006

Dreams

So I when for my review to get in to FIT. It didnt go so hot. Not one question or responce at all. My drawing skill were no where near the illstration majors that applyed. Over half the people had there BA or BFA so my BS meant nothing. It feel like my dream to be a toy designer is being riped away from me. I did all the work for nothing. The industry wont look at me cause i dont have to word design in my degree cause its "Computer ART" talk about a vague name. So no matter now may drawing and design classes i take i am still worthless. So what am i suck with most likely going back to get a dame degree in illistration. RA RA more thing to pay back with no money. It there program had said you need to have a degree in illistration to aply i would have change schools and majors last year to get that instead. Does help that i was neverous and feel like crap from the 2 hours of sleep i got all week. To add leaving out the drawing in the back of my porfolio because i forgot them. Wow there goes what i want to do in life. I am be working a mim wage job the rest of my life cause my drawing skill arent up to skill. Even if i can make model and can create things and have ideas. I guess that doesnt matter unless your drawing skill are gods gift to the world. I feel like crap. I guess it time to waste more money on a worthless education.